Sometimes, it all seems too much, you know, when there’s a spate of uncontrollable events and situations that push you to expand your limits of resilience to the point you think you can’t go on. I find myself in such a place.
It would be so easy to not close my eyes right now. I would have plenty of very reasonable excuses not to, and yet I’ve been playing this game long enough to know that within is the only place where I’ll find my Peace with what is occurring on the outside.
The trouble is, when we are overwhelmed, “in” does not appear to be peaceful. It can appear busy, chaotic, dramatic, fearful and yet I know without doubt that there is a space beyond all that beholding me and all the chaos. By welcoming the chaos, not denying it, not suppressing it, not masking it, beholding it all in the Love of my conscious awareness, I know it is only a matter of time before I see the light of the Sun piercing through the clouds again.
Here’s what I do when it all appears to get a bit much:
- Acknowledge that I am are struggling
- Phone a friend.. but the right friend… a friend that I know will listen and not judge or immediately try to fix and offer solutions (they can come later). Rushing into fix mode stops me from fully feeling what is arising in the moment and for me to allow solutions to arise that come from my own Soul.
- Welcome the discomfort, meet it with Love. I may need a Meditation buddy to remind me of the latter.
- If it gets sooo intense that I really feel like I can’t close my eyes, I use my Mantras with my eyes open.
- Sometimes I do my practice lying down or in a supported, semi-supine position, especially if there is physical exhaustion. I don’t worry about falling asleep, if I am overwhelmed my body probably needs it.
- I ask for help and support if I need it. This has taken a lot of practice, it’s not easy for me.
- Be honest about my needs and what will actually support me right now. Sometimes I need to do less, sometimes I need to take action. I do my best to listen to my Heart and let my Soul guide me lovingly through.
Remember Meditation can bring up old traumas to be released. If I notice shame creeping in, I welcome that too. I meet these patterns of shame, blame and guilt and allow myself to see how hard my thoughts can be on myself and I do my very best to meet myself with Love, even if sometimes I don’t really know how.
We are like onions, peeling away layers of conditioning that doesn’t serve us. Sometimes closing our eyes is gonna make our eyes water.
Our theme tonight is Gentleness and Compassion. How can we extend the same Love to our struggling selves as we do to others…
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