I was at comedy workshop a few months ago and the facilitator asked us to pair up and share with our partners what was “weird” about us. It was an interesting exercise. He joked about how this is also a good thing to do on a first date to overcome the tendency that many people have to try and present ourselves as we think the other person would like us to be.
I referenced that I’d been called weird many times in my last weeks blog. I don’t see myself as weird, although I can see now, through the lens of my Autism and ADHD diagnosis how I may appear weird to those that see the world and communicate in a different way. Having gone through the process of diagnosis, of which one has to revisit ones entire existence from birth to the present day, I am left reflecting on much of my life, reconciling with the past me, finding compassion for little “Rachie Roo”, whom tried sooo hard not to be weird and yet still got called weird anyway.
Not only have I been called weird, but also recently a beautiful freak, which inspired this Haiku..
BEAUTIFUL FREAK
You beautiful freak
Mysterious paradox
Teacup in a storm
I think younger people these days use the word “freak” in a more endearing way than in the 1970’s and 80’s, where if you called someone a freak it was most definitely a derogatory term and pointed to weirdness in its most distorted sense!
Last week we touched on how the English wyrd, means fate, destiny, or the mysterious unfolding of life. For most of my life, I understood weird to mean odd, strange, different, or somehow not quite fitting in.
Perhaps this is why so many of us who have been called weird spend years trying to hide the very things that make us unique. Our sensitivity. Our creativity. Our intensity. Our curiosity. The way we see connections others don’t.
What if weirdness isn’t a flaw to overcome. What if it is simply the shape our authenticity takes when we stop trying to fit into someone else’s idea of normal. Perhaps by embracing our weird, we give ourselves permission to be who we’ve always been.
Research into authenticity suggests that people who feel able to express their true thoughts, feelings, and identities tend to experience greater wellbeing, higher self-esteem, and lower levels of stress.
Perhaps this isn’t really surprising, as I can personally attest to the fact that trying to be someone we are not requires a huge amount of energy and is exhausting. Honouring who we actually are frees that energy for living.
And all this leads perfectly to that age old question that many “wyrd ones” inevitably find themselves asking…
Who are you?
Who are you really?
Self Enquiry
Invitation to grab your journal…
✍🏼 What parts of myself have I hidden in order to appear more “normal”?
✍🏼 What qualities in me have been labelled weird that might actually be strengths?
✍🏼 If I no longer needed anyone’s permission, what would I allow myself to be?
✍🏼 What becomes possible when I stop trying to fit in and just be myself?
Meditation Cafe
Tonight in Meditation Café we’ll be exploring the theme of Wierd🎭✨
This week we’ll be reflecting on how embracing our weird and loving ourselves just as we are is the first step to liberation.
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A space to pause, reflect and experience this together🥰
Meditation Cafe is on Sundays (except bank Holidays) at 8pm on zoom.
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Blessed Be, imperfectly perfect Humans 🙏🏼🤗✨
Raye 💫
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